today
Written on 4/22/2009 10:20:00 PM by Miles
Today I feel like my house - full of a bunch of unpacked boxes and full of a lot of still-empty cabinets. Nothing in it’s place...or getting there anytime soon.
Isn’t that life? Isn’t that the whole “in this world you will have trouble..” part that Jesus was speaking of? I’m fairly certain it is. More certain that I hate it. And you know what? Most days I am quite okay with it, because I generally understand that my life is a but a breath, and only God can hold things together...including me.
Today, however? Today, I hate it. I really stinkin’ hate it. I’m full of hopelessness and a deep sense of no control. So, how did I respond to this today? Well, today I ignored it all, trying to fix everything. Every single thing that I know is hopeless. See a problem developing here? I’m pushing 30 for crying out loud...have I learned nothing in this life?!? Apparently not.
Today, I am still stressed - I am still worried - I still feel hopeless. I am extremely frustrated and fatigued, and my fatigue frustrates me. My faith is microscopic, wounded and crippled. The good news today? God is exactly who he says he is, despite my crappy, oh-so hopeless circumstances. So, I call it a night and wait for tomorrow (which has enough trouble for itself....gee, I love scripture), and more importantly wait for a Father to reveal Himself to me. The same Father who cares about me feeling hopeless and stressed and wounded.
Pretty pumped to know He’s here today.
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Hey Josh,
Keep the faith and like I always say, "This,too, shall pass"-tomorrow's another day. Love you man. :)
I love you too, buddy.